i may spam your inbox soon with new arts.i also did a minor gallery clean up.also my Crimson Mystic contest ends the 5th,and afterwards im gonna let you guys pick the best entries.im not gonna be able to have any new contests for a good while once this one ends.also,my commission sale will close that day...actually ill just close them entirely until i have time to do thems again,cause right now i got alot going on.

and update!

after getting out of the bathtub,my vision suddenly went blurry.as i was turning the fossit off,and end up cutting off a layer of skin or more off the palm of me drawing hand.i have no idea how bad it is,since it JUST happened like not ever 20 minutes ago.all i know is that it was bleeding alot.i should be ok,its just gonna slow art down some till it heals up.

and the new Fairysphere story idea,i like it but i dont.i am not sure if i should work on it next year,alot doing with things in my life and the depression.ill give it some time and think on it.i may not even use crosses of sin,i may change it..idk.but either way im still updating the bios since i need to do that.

at least im over the stupid cold...

i wanted to thank you guys for helping me get out of this dam depression.well,its still there but not as bad to the point i wanna jump off a cliff...

anyway,i still got a cough but im pretty much over the cold now.my internet is acting up again cause of the wind,got another storm in my area.im not sure if its gonna rain or snow,i just know its bloody cold outside.

im gonna try and get myself in a better mood since i dont feel as crappy now and start halling ass on arts,since rly soon,my contest will close and ill have 3 more drawings to work on


also,i may consider Fairysphere:Crosses of Sin.
for some reason,this idea is stuck to me now,unlike my pass sequel attempts
(2,3,and 4)
like,those batch of randoms...dont be surpised if you see a couple of those in your inbox soon

i wont spoil my plan,and this idea maybe for 2010,after i finish my bios im working on now...itll be later down the road,like way later.

and your probably wondering about my last poll a?
no im not running away,ive just been uncertain of my relationship,and ive been getting mix comments from people about this for the longest time.though his hacking and coughing makes it difficult to sleep at night >.<

but anyway,im gonna try my best to get out of this sad faze and get back to arts.

well,first off im about over the cold (i think)
i took down the randoms,well except the actual art.my intention was to start an entirely new story,but people i guess want more Fairysphere.there is like no point in me doing random batches of characters if it means nothing,its a waist of my time and art supplies.plus every dam idea ive had for a new story is taken,or copyrighted,so to hell with it.i dont need randoms if Crosses of Sin is just gonna be a Fairysphere sequal...

im rly sick of Fairysphere,its dead to me now...everything is actually,even me.
maybe if i get out of this deep depression ill feel different.idk whats gonna break me from it after being in this mode for 2 months.
i should have new art up soon,well ones i started.i dont wanna risk getting fluid crap from my cold on my artwork.plus i got artist block.

all thats been crossing my mind is when will it end already,im sick of the pain and bullshit i go through everyday.im not happy,dont think i ever will be in this life at this point.why am i still alive,to suffer in this miserable world,to accomplish being an artist,fuckin peoples lives up,chase dreams that probably will never catch...thats like all i see now.
and im seeing that "dream guy" again...
what the hell does the "dream guy" want with me?......

again,sry...
why i havent done much on here or PSO,cause i know people dont wanna deal with me being all emo,or wanna hear about my problems so i just been isolating it inside myself.its best for everyone...though,ill die sooner.

and and happy turkey day,as you can tell im not to thrilled.ill probably be the same on xmas to.

hey people.

well,i am sick with the cold.have been for 4 days now.also,i havent been in a mood to anything i dont have much energy.my boyfriend and i are getting better though.he had that 101 fever cause he took these Mucinex meds in too early of a time frame.i plan to start halling ass on art once i feel better,so im considering this my break time.and about my food issue,i managed to get my dad to send me some money,and i gotta take care of that later when my bf gets home.since the roommate devowers everything,im thinking about just using the money to get nothing but non-perishables and put it under lock and key,though im tempted to use the money on art supplies,thats not why i requested the money.also,the bronco is down again till my bf gets a new pump for his system things (i keep forgetting what he calls it).and one last thing,Fairysphere will stay im not getting rid of it.i just wanna start something new.for about a year now ive been wanting to write a new story.so yeah,theres my status.

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i may do more features later,ill see.