hey people whats up.

yes,i am "overwhelmed by crap"...
i got soo much art to do.i gotta go to California this weekend to visit my mom,and i am trying to confirm these stupid appointments that im supposed to go to next week.

ide like to apologize for the spammage again.my brain is all scattered,and im trying very hard to figure out what to do.the rest of the year im gonna be pretty busy in terms of art,Fairysphere,and real life crap...oh and Phantasy Star Online.i most likely will not be doing the "Secret Santa" thing this year,i just dont have time.

commissions are open,if you didnt notice.right now im still broke,and so is my man..well till friday.we barely can cover bills right now,and i dont know at this rate if we can move in April.if you want to help,commission me please.any bit will help greatly,and the less likely i gotta starve all day till dinner.

oh,i decided im going to stick with the "Cheche Test" idea.i would take it down,but i like her dress,and the Crimson one just looks too cool to trash.sadly,idk if you saw it in your inbox,but i had to scrap my "Lolita Dead Master".there was just way too many mistakes and i forgot her horns,so...when i get a chance ill make a new drawing of her.did keep the outfit concept though.i just started a black and white pic of Mysticaya,and i still gotta start coloring my first colored pic of Midori and possibly this illustration i had lying around i forgot about.

does anyone have Myspace or Facebook?

hmm...think that be all.

yep,i know they have been closed for awhile.ive been really busy and sidetracked...so um,yeah.

anyway,here are the new prices.

basic sketchbook drawing= $3.00
these are usually pretty quickly done,but they still turn out nicely

examples:

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sketchbook drawing with actual colors,its $5.00
these take a tad bit more time,but not much.

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one character with no background=$10.00
these take a bit,bit they turn about pretty cool when done

examples:

depending on the commission,i may add a slight background..i tend to do that,kind of a habit.
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one character with background.there are to background options:

basic: =$13.00
these take a bit longer then ones without a background,but not much.

examples:

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and there is half-full,which is $15.00.these can take a awhile,depending on how much details and stuff i put into it.

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full color drawings=$20.00
these can take me awhile,cause of the coloring.also depends on the amount of details in which i use.

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ink pen full detail works=$25.00
these take a very long time,it can take me a good week or two to finish one,cause of all the tiny details i add.

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sadly,i have taken off the option for the 10 character max color illustration cause there not that high in damand.however,i will still draw them.if you wish to talk,send a note.some examples:

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digital drawing:=$10.00
my skills still need alot of work yet,but i think im starting to get better,slowly.i left this one open cause ive gotten good comments about my efforts.her are some examples:

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additional characters are $1 each.reason for that is because its more time/color/detail in which i have to do.

i will pretty much draw anything.however,i have a limit on which i will draw.
here is the "i will not draw" list:
-guyXguy *cring*.
-hard core porno,i mean like threesomes and stuff...um,no.i got kids that watch me,and im not rly into drawing stuff "that graphic".
-machines,and cities.its one of my low points i still need to get better at.

if you do this,its an instant "no":
"oh my character is a girl,and had orange hair and green eyes and wears a flower dress and shes only soo tall and ...:
please,give me a reference.should not be that hard.

hmm,think that is it.

anyway,i accept paypal.if you dont have paypal,you can send money through mail,at your own risk of course.send me a note if your interested.

hey people.

well for starters,Halloween is tomorrow.i thought about dressing up as one of my characters,but since i am broke...still,i cannot.so i probably will just be doing what i been doing,and ill have to watch out for trick or treaters...one of the things i hate about this holiday is strangers coming to my door.

my health is odd lately.i am not sure if ive been having them this whole time,or just started but it appears ive been having random panic attacks,which my mom has.when i first had it,me and my boyfriend thought i was having a body tremor or something,but i guess not.and i have no way to see a docter,and i cannot afford on,unless i get disability back...
*crosses fingers*

i may or may not start the new bios,i will see how my schedule goes.i still need to gather all the info for each character before i can even start them,and i have not had a chance to do that yet.

i really wish i could make Fairysphere into something.fuck...
in a way,i feel like a failer.after years of hard work,where has the idea gone? nowhere.
actually,i think the storylines taken.cause im seeing references lately based off my storyline,which i JUST redid >.<.same with some of my character names,like Mysticaya...yep thats right.people telling me it off an anime or some crap..whatever.i really dont care anymore.im honestly just tired and fed up fighting over something thats probably never going to get past the internets and out to the world.

-_-


and i did it all by myself,and still am.ill be 25 next year,half way to 30.i started this project in 1996,when i was about to get out of 6th grade.now you tell me,would you be fed up if you was in my shoes?

sry....
thats been on my mind lately.

or maybe im right.maybe its not ment to be "out there".i really dont know.
and why the hell to i keep seeing Fairysphere in my head again,like in real time,saying stuff,like "your very important to me"...wtf?

yay for sounding like an emo XD
anyway,moving on.

ive been practicing in photoshop,as you have notice.hopefully thats paying off...

also,i got 2 very important doctor appointments the 10th...i cannot,for any reason,miss them..or i wont get my disability back.and,i may need to visit my mom again soon,she keeps asking me to visit her,and i may visit my dad as well since im down there,ill see what my boyfriend says.

well there you have it.

yep.i am...

well,i have decided NOT to redo the Fairysphere bios that are outdated.instead,ill just fix that stuff on the new set,so it will be less work and stress and stuff on me.also,im slowly getting the new info together,and i plan to go through the storyline soon.i need to find a way to summarize 120 pages worth of info into a short paragraph,for each character.oh...thats gonna be fun.

im considering adding some extra characters to the "Crimson Mystic" contest.i have an idea of who i want to add.its still up in the air right now.also i intend to open commissions up probably in the middle of next month,after i take care of other,more important things.

i may have a new drawing or two..or three up in the next few days.idk XD.im practicing my photoshop skills,i hope you guys dont mind.my boyfriend keeps insisting i try and improve in that category.it is soo hard for me though,drawing with a mouse instead of a pencil,which is what i know best.

well im gonna end this journal with....
FEATURES XD

well first off,i wasnt feeling well a few days ago.i had some sort of "body tremor",whatever that is.it was like i was running in circles non stop,and i was dizzy.yet i was just sitting.felt like puking,crying,and sneezing all at once.it...was weird.but aside that...



you know this picture right?well,this is how intend to do my new bio set,all my characters.
however,i intend to with Viless,Chuwie's and Chochowlis's alternate forms,add them all in the same bio in some creative way in both forms...in that makes sence.sorry i just woke up.i got up very early so i continue getting stuff done today.im soo eager to start this set,i think its gonna kick ass!

LISTEN UP!
im removing all the bios info from the current ones.personally,i think it will be better off on the new ones.also,i dont plan to add city symbols in the new set.so for awhile,you will not have much info on my characters other then picture reference,and the weapon pics in my gallery.

um...what else?

i changed prizes in my "Crimson Mystic" contest for and two major reasons.one,not many entries,so no point on overworking myself.and two,i had planned to open commissions back up about that time (maybe sooner) for the holidays.

and i think thats all the major news for the moment.